Angie's September New Moon Dream Board 🌑

(Há uma tradução em português (muito ruim) abaixo!) 

This month's New Moon is one I'd like to celebrate by creating a New Moon Dream Board! Not that I don't do this often, but let's be honest, I haven't posted since March! So much has happened, and almost all of that has been wonderful, minus our baby girl Niki getting sick. But she's definitely feeling better, which is wonderful itself!

I am hoping that this post will kick me into Blogger Mode and I'll start blogging regularly again. I miss this space. I also miss Bloglovin' (it's been down for a while) and don't know how to follow anyone anymore! So... I'll need to fix that. 

But, for now, my September New Moon Dream Board! 

🧹 Tidy Room, Tidy Mind - I was talking to my sister-in-law about this! Have you ever noticed how the energy of a clean house fills you with a revitalizing zen feeling? 

For me, making the time to tidy and summoning the willpower to just get up and clean, is hard! Whether this is due to my ADHD or not, I will keep my living space refreshing and relaxing.

🧘‍♀️ Healthy Is Happy - I will focus on my health, both mentally and physically. Not only that, but I will do so for my little family as well. I will eat better, I will exercise more, I will focus on my new self-care app and I will focus on my gratitude journal. Cultivating a healthy, happy life is so important! As for being there for my family and friends, I will be there for them whether they want to laugh, yell, cry, seek advice and so on. I will help them live their best lives and help myself do so as well!

🪙 I Welcome The Wealth Life Offers Me - I have my dream job right now... Literally, it's been my dream job since I was young. I'm the Community Manager, Marketer and Content Strategist (plus Recruiter!) for my indie game dev company. However, I actually really enjoy working and right now our hours are a little low- so I will bring more wealth into my life. Maybe this is with a project or a side job or another job I just love doing that lasts a very long time! I will mention that I work from home- so I can be with Astrid, Koji and our babies all day! My Work-Life Balance is pretty damn good. 

❤️ I Love My Life And Those In My Life - I know it's a little silly, because it's something that I have in abundance and there is never a fear of losing this but I include Love on all of my dream boards. Love is one of the most important parts of my life! Love for my little family (my handsome husband Koji, our beautiful wife Astrid, our animal babies and my sister-in-law), myself, where I live, where I'll be living, my hobbies, my interests, my goals... I just love love. Of course, the strongest love that I have is for my little family and myself. But loving so much just adds extra joy to my life! So, I will love my life and those in my life! I will focus on the good, welcome positivity and succeed in what I want to accomplish! All with a heart full of love.

That is my New Moon Dream Board for this beautiful September New Moon! If you've made a Dream Board this month (for the Full or New Moon), I'd love if you'd share that with me!

I will post much more often, friends. Leave me comments, if anyone is still around!

P.S. If you are around, HOW do you follow people nowadays?! 

A Lua Nova deste mês é uma que eu gostaria de comemorar criando um Quadro de Sonhos de Lua Nova! Não que eu não faça isso com frequência, mas vamos ser honestos, eu não posto desde março! Tanta coisa aconteceu, e quase tudo isso foi maravilhoso, menos nossa filhinha Niki ficando doente. Mas ela definitivamente está se sentindo melhor, o que é maravilhoso!

Espero que este post me leve para o Modo Blogger e comece a blogar regularmente novamente. saudades desse espaço. Também estou com saudades do Bloglovin' (está fora do ar faz tempo) e não sei mais como seguir ninguém! Então... eu preciso consertar isso.

Mas, por enquanto, meu quadro de sonhos de Lua Nova de Setembro!

🧹 Quarto arrumado, mente arrumada - eu estava conversando com minha cunhada sobre isso! Você já notou como a energia de uma casa limpa o enche de uma sensação zen revitalizante?

Para mim, arrumar tempo para arrumar e reunir a força de vontade para apenas levantar e limpar é difícil! Se isso é devido ao meu TDAH ou não, vou manter meu espaço de vida refrescante e relaxante.

🧘‍♀️ Saudável é Feliz - vou me concentrar na minha saúde, tanto mental quanto fisicamente. Não só isso, mas também farei isso pela minha pequena família. Vou comer melhor, vou me exercitar mais, vou focar no meu novo aplicativo de autocuidado e vou focar no meu diário de gratidão. Cultivar uma vida saudável e feliz é tão importante! Quanto a estar lá para minha família e amigos, estarei lá para eles se quiserem rir, gritar, chorar, pedir conselhos e assim por diante. Vou ajudá-los a viver suas melhores vidas e me ajudar a fazê-lo também!

🪙 Aceito a riqueza que a vida me oferece - eu tenho o meu emprego dos sonhos agora... Literalmente, tem sido o meu emprego dos sonhos desde que eu era jovem. Eu sou o Community Manager, Marketer e Content Strategist (mais o Recruiter!) da minha empresa de desenvolvimento de jogos indie. No entanto, eu realmente gosto de trabalhar e agora nossas horas são um pouco baixas, então vou trazer mais riqueza para minha vida. Talvez seja com um projeto ou um trabalho paralelo ou outro trabalho que eu adoro fazer que dura muito tempo! Vou mencionar que trabalho em casa - para poder ficar com Astrid, Koji e nossos bebês o dia todo! Meu equilíbrio trabalho-vida é muito bom.

❤️ Eu amo minha vida e aqueles em minha vida - eu sei que é um pouco bobo, porque é algo que eu tenho em abundância e nunca há medo de perder isso, mas eu incluo o amor em todos os meus quadros dos sonhos. O amor é uma das partes mais importantes da minha vida! Amor pela minha pequena família (meu lindo marido Koji, nossa linda esposa Astrid, nossos bebês animais e minha cunhada), eu mesmo, onde moro, onde estarei morando, meus hobbies, meus interesses, meus objetivos. .. Eu simplesmente amo o amor. Claro, o amor mais forte que eu tenho é pela minha pequena família e por mim mesma. Mas amar tanto apenas adiciona alegria extra à minha vida! Então, eu vou amar minha vida e aqueles em minha vida! Vou focar no bem, acolher a positividade e ter sucesso no que quero realizar! Tudo com o coração cheio de amor.

Esse é o meu Quadro de Sonhos de Lua Nova para esta linda Lua Nova de setembro! Se você fez um Quadro dos Sonhos este mês (para a Lua Cheia ou Nova), eu adoraria se você compartilhasse isso comigo!

Vou postar com muito mais frequência, amigos. Deixe-me comentários, se alguém ainda estiver por perto!

P.S. Se você está por perto, COMO você segue as pessoas hoje em dia?!

Blooming Under the Moonlight 🌔

 

Good evening, friends, if anyone is even reading this little blog anymore? 🤔 Even if not, there's no reason not to write. Someday, eventually a blogger will stumble across this post and resonate with my writing and we'll follow each other and become friends. That is what I believe! Though, of course, friends who I haven't spoken to in a long time might still be blogging themselves and will reach out and say hello and I will be so glad to catch up with them!

Plus, of course, just writing to write and keep my special little space here is good, too. 😁

I've been really struggling this year. From my lumbar degenerative disc disease (which sounds scary but isn't actually a "disease") to my mental health... It's all just been bad.

I've actually been suffering with my worst bout of deep depression since 2015. Thankfully, nothing is bad, as in nothing bad is happening in my life. In fact, outside of some money issues, everything is going wonderfully and I am so happy but yet that thick depressive smog just covers me.

I keep trying to pull myself together. I'm taking my medication, of course, though if it's working or not, I am not sure... I spend all day with my loves and they help me so so much, plus of course, all of our babies. My job is supportive and my Doctor is great. I even have therapy now! Astrid bought this large bundle of random incense and one of them is jasmine scented. It's such an uplifting, positive and magickal scent and it's been helping me a lot.

I have recently started time blocking my day (though I have only done this once... I will start this fresh upcoming week by doing so more) and I have also been embracing magick again. It's been SO long since I've embraced my Witchiness. 

I was on Etsy, looking up unique perfume oil that had a mossy scent (which I know is very specific) and I kept coming across the most magickal scents that made me feel that pull of magick and nature, of ancient rituals and special meanings. The perfume oil I ended up getting is actually based on Countess Bathory, which is much more gothic than Pagan, but the scent is SO me!

Bathory Perfume Oil from Fabled Fragrances
Scent notes: Blood Orange, Sangria, Bulgarian Rose, Red Currant, Red Musk, and Amber

I cannot wait to breath in this rich, royal scent.

But yes! So this awakened my hibernating Witchiness. Later on, I went on Amazon and there was a new book that was releasing soon called "Art Magick: How to become an art witch and unlock your creative power" and I ordered that INSTANTLY! There's only 11 left in stock, so if you want your own, be sure to grab one fast! (I'm not getting a commission or anything, it's just that so far, it's wonderful and inspiring and full of positive vibes!)

Right now I have on the Witchy Coffee Shop Ambience YouTube video while I have a cup of Tazo Zen tea by my side. I read my tarot for the day, which is Knight of Wands (Reversed), which is telling me that I am shunning my true self and that I need to be my authentic self, acknowledge and move past this fogginess and lack of energy and maybe even try something new! Oh, and definitely to embrace creativity!

While I was making my Zen tea, I also grabbed a picture of Banjo to share with everyone. He's such a sweet and beautiful doggy!

Now, I am going to continue relaxing, drinking my tea, cuddling with Koji and Astrid and loving them, loving our babies, read cozy social media posts, do a little gaming, do a little journaling and just have a peaceful night as the rain gently falls.

Dealing With My Mental Health (Where I've Been)

Ahhhh, it's been a while. I wish I could say I was addicted to a game or focused on journaling; creating my D&D character or doing lots and lots of cleaning but the fact is... I have been dealing with the worst executive dysfunction of my life.

Not many people know what executive dysfunction is, even if they're knowledgeable about mental health and ADHD especially. I describe executive dysfunction like so:

Imagine you have a light bulb that has burnt out. You know where a replacement is. You can reach the light bulb without any issue. It's dark and you really need the additional light but... You just can't make yourself go and replace the light bulb.

However, that's... Light bulbs. To give a better example: you're a gamer and the best expansion pack for your favorite game just came out... You have a great PC, you have the money for the game and you have the time to play. But you just can't get yourself to buy and play the game. It's like a block that feels impossible to move past.

That's what I've been experiencing and it's so tough. I also feel very agitated. I'm not grumpy or anything like that but I feel off. I really love feeling comfy, cozy and peaceful. But lately, my brain is anxious and my body feels weird and I feel... Chaotic isn't the right word? I'm calm. But I'm not peaceful. 

Everything has been suffering because of all of this. I am having an extremely hard time focusing, I haven't journaled (which is REALLY helpful to me) in a long time, I can't really get myself to play anything other than Wushu and you know I love gaming... I haven't watched my favorite TV series' or started a MUD like I want. Cleaning is non-existent and even taking care of my physical and mental health has fallen to the wayside. 

It's a very jumbled mess and every single thing is making me feel worse. I just can't get myself to do anything and it's so stressful!

I am 99% sure this is executive dysfunction, especially because I am currently not on any ADHD medication. I've tried Adderall and Ritalin and neither helped me. Now I'm on Modafinil, which isn't for ADHD but is still a stimulant (for sleep disorders.) However, there is the possibility that my anti-depressant has worn off. This can definitely happen! You can be on a medication for years and suddenly the dosage or medication just... Doesn't work anymore. Or it's lack of ADHD medication AND my anti-depressant wearing off.

I have an appointment with my Doctor in the morning. I've been putting even this off... 

I want to get back to my Angie way of being! 

To end this post, I'd like to share this post from E. H. Mann that I found when Googling some information about executive dysfunction. It's about literally not being able to make yourself move from bed and it's the first time I've seen someone write about not being able to even get up and do something, like me. I hate that others go through this, but I am also relieved that I am not alone. 

As usual, Astrid and Koji are taking good care of me and our babies make me so happy. I'm putting all of my effort into working and I'm having a wonderful time with my job and I think bettering my mental health and focus will make me an even better team member! 

I can't say it's all bad. I love my life. I just need to fix a little bit here and there to feel my best.

I have a new job and it's perfect x being a Community Manager

 

Me to myself! 

I... I have my dream job? I HAVE MY DREAM JOB?! I HAVE MY DREAM JOB! The job I have dreamt of since 2004 when I was fourteen is now mine and I am so excited and proud, especially because my company is so wonderful. Our team is family and everyone is great. I truly look forward to coming in every morning and talking to them as we plan our day. My company is Legio Vox Studios and we're making the game The End Of The Line: New Age! (This is our website and there's a mailing list you can sign up for!)

The End Of The Line: New Age is a mobile gacha game focused on storytelling and player choices! If you love your choices truly mattering, this is definitely a game you'd like. I reallyyyy love the story too!

I'm the marketing Community Manager and I am loving what I do. I'm also working from home which is PERFECT for me! I've been a gamer my whole life and now I get to work for an indie game company and I love indie gaming. Now, it's something I surround myself with even more than when I started and I am enjoying all of the amazing indie developers I've found on social media while doing my job. I follow them on my personal account too!

It's amazing that my biggest hobby (gaming and social media) mixed with one of my greatest joys (community and socializing) is now my job. I also have a schedule now, so I actually can DO STUFF after work! My work day ends around 5 PM and I have all evening off. It's a great feeling! Though, I wouldn't mind having more hours if I get that chance!

Anyway, this is why I've been quiet. Despite having a schedule, I've just been so hyped! I'll start posting more often! 

I'd really love if you'd follow our social media, you can find us on: Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn and Pinterest!

How are you all? Tell me about your job!

Notebook Therapy "Tsuki" 2022 Lucky Bag

 

Hello friends! I am SO excited to share this perfect gift that Astrid bought me for Christmas with you. ❤️ First, though, a little reminder: spoilers. 

Notebook Therapy had their 2022 Tsuki Lucky Bag (filled with never before seen items) for sale and Astrid got me one right before they sold out! I was so excited waiting for my package and it's seriously so, so amazing. There was over $200 worth of Notebook Therapy items inside from the Tsuki collection!

It's "inspired by the magical Fukubukuro new year boxes of Japan - the most unique gift of the year!" What does that mean? Read until the end to find out! 

Anyway, I love Japan. Like, I LOVE Japan and have since I was fourteen (that was back in 2004!) and I also love bullet journaling, so I am super grateful. 😊

Alright,  let's get on to what was inside!

First...

Everything came in this precious tote bag that's full of Japanese imagery, from the maneki-neko to the gourd sake bottle! Plus of course, the tsuki (Moon.)

I am definitely using this as my new bag everywhere I go. Inside was a little pouch full of tape, which I'll show you soon! I love the little pouch and plan on keeping either my tape tucked safely inside or just use this for something else. Maybe a little lucky pouch for my tote bag? 🤔😮

Next...

My brand new bullet journal! It's a beautiful red wine color and has silver gilded edge pages with little moons, stars and flowers on them. The front of the journal has the same design and it's just so so beautiful. I cannot wait to write down my thoughts, plans, wishes, goals and more in this journal.

Packaged with the journal were these Japanese themed transfer stickers from various FABULOUS artists! There're so many maneki-neko plus mochi, torii gates, moons, ramen, little lanterns and so much more! Ahhhh, I have wanted transfer stickers for SO long. These are my first and I'm so happy that they are!

There was also this beautiful Tsuki stand-up pencil holder in the same red wine color as my journal and also these lovely Japanese themed washi tapes. The chunky one looks like kawaii little stamps and the others are more like origami paper patterns (in my opinion!)

Wrapping up this perfect lucky bag was an elegant golden ruler with Tsuki stencils, a Japanese themed stamp set (I love them all and I can't wait to use them on EVERYTHING) and a maneki-neko keychain! I'm actually a HUGE collector of keychains, or well... Was in the past, until my old bag broke and I haven't had one sturdy enough to restart my collection! Now I do AND I have my first keychain for my bag too!

I was incredibly touched that Astrid bought me this lucky bag, filled with so many goodies that are so perfect for me. She's the bestest wife ever! Thank you, foxie! I love you!

"Made up of two words, Fukubukuro translates literally to Lucky Bag! It comes from the Japanese deity- Daikokuten- who holds a bag filled with happiness + good luck. Every year, companies across Japan use this bag as inspiration for Fukubukuro, filling mystery bags with luxury goods to thank their customers for their support over the year. We'd like to share this tradition with you in time for 2022! Can you guess what's inside?" - Notebook Therapy

Embroidery

 

Good morning, afternoon or evening friends! I'd like you to do something while you read this post... Take a deep breath, relax your body and feel a warm and peaceful feeling within you. Sweet little hobbies deserve quiet, cozy moments.

I'm sitting here writing with my Tazo Zen tea by my side, in a beautiful brown mug etched with cream colored leaves that my mother-in-law gave me. Nearby is my brand new embroidery kit, also from my mother-in-law. She bought this kit right before Halloween and there is a pattern for trick-or-treating, spooky animals like bats and spiders with a gorgeous crescent moon in the sky and finally, a Witch's hat that's surrounded by pumpkins.

Even if Halloween is over for now and November has come, Halloween and Samhain will forever be my favorite holiday and sabbat, so I am excited to have a homemade decoration that will envoke magick. 

I haven't started embroidering yet, but I will be soon. I just need to be brave and start. I worry I won't be successful, but it's better to try than not to try.

I'd like to show off a few Etsy embroideries that I have found and love during the start of my new hobby. I hope you enjoy them and have a magickal day!

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Which is your favorite, friends?

Take care,

- Angie

Happy November!

It's November! It's time for mashed potatoes, Christmas music, Yule planning, gifts and the warm cozies as we decorate for the third most fabulous time of the year! The first is birthdays and anniversaries and the second is Halloween and Samhain! 

I'm starting November by trying to do as much as possible... Continue working on my November bullet journal pages, exercise (not gonna happen tonight .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.) and so much more.

I have done some stuff, though and I should be proud of that, right?! Right! I can't let myself get caught in the negative. I will admit that my executive dysfunction can make starting anything, from stuff I absolutely love doing to stuff I have a very hard time with, extremely hard. The best way I can describe executive dysfunction, which is part of ADHD, is this: you have a hobby you LOVE and there's something you REALLY want to do involving it and yet you just cannot get yourself to do so. It's like physically and mentally being held back, even if it's easy.

Alright, for real now... I WON'T let myself get caught in the negative. 

Tonight I've started reading one novel and have another queued up. The one I am reading now is Custom Made Demon King and so far it's SO GOOD! I love these kinds of novels a lot. 

Here's the summary: 

Roy’s life was nothing special. The only thing commendable was the last few moments when he saved a mother and her child from a drunk driver.  

... 

 

It’s really an egg! Damn it, what kind of monster have I become? Did I fall into Hell instead of making it to Heaven?? 

Join Roy as he ventures through various worlds with the Custom Made Demon King System—a system that allows Roy to draw anything he can imagine and create it through exchanging souls!

Koji and I are reading this one together and I can't wait to read more! The one I have queued up is one that was recommended on a sponsored Instagram page, haha. The MC (Main Character) is FEMALE!!!! which is so rare for me to find and she's involved with death and demons, the kind of stuff I love. It's called The Keeper of Night and here's the summary:

Half British Reaper, half Japanese Shinigami, Ren Scarborough has been collecting souls in the London streets for centuries. Expected to obey the harsh hierarchy of the Reapers who despise her, Ren conceals her emotions and avoids her tormentors as best she can.

When her failure to control her Shinigami abilities drives Ren out of London, she flees to Japan to seek the acceptance she’s never gotten from her fellow Reapers. Accompanied by her younger brother, the only being on earth to care for her, Ren enters the Japanese underworld to serve the Goddess of Death… only to learn that here, too, she must prove herself worthy. Determined to earn respect, Ren accepts an impossible task—find and eliminate three dangerous Yokai demons—and learns how far she’ll go to claim her place at Death’s side. 

I really think that this will become a favorite novel of mine, but of course it's too soon to tell!

Outside of novels, fashion! I bought a new pair of jeans. They're skinny jeans which I rarely wear, but I. want. BOOTS! I want Uggs or similar boots as well as big furry boots like I see on gals in Japan. The jeans are a very dark blue, inspired by a gal I found online wearing ane gyaru. I feel like this fits my style, as I am not comfortable with shorts or skirts yet and I love being comfy. Also, not just gyaru, but another huge fashion and lifestyle love of mine... Mori Kei and the other nature themed styles. Jeans aren't often used in Mori Kei, but I can totally make them work, right?! Right! Gyaru and Mori Kei are complete opposite fashion styles and lifestyles, but they are each part of me. I realized long ago that wearing just one style while longing for others and living just one lifestyle when others called to me just wasn't good for me. 

I'm sure there are people who think I can't be Gyaru and Mori Kei... But that's their problem!

I also bought Astrid a spinner ring, myself a bullet journal (my November theme is crafty) mini calendar stencil and Koji some new incense, both a favorite scent and one that's new to him!

Oh! Astrid bought me a fidget Slug. His name is Sluggo! She found him completely by chance on Etsy and I absolutely needed him. Here's a picture AND he actually will turn colors when you hold him:

He's so cute!!!!

Finally and yes I realize that this post is all over the place... I made a new friend at work as well as a pen pal, my pen pal being from the International Geek Girl Pen Pal Club! She already wrote me a letter and I wrote one back! I can't wait until it's delivered. She's my first pen pal!

Also, Shoo, my friend who I met via work, told me about Slowly! It's a Pen Pal style app where you can find (platonic!) matches and send them long letters. The best part is, depending on how close or far you are, the letters take a while to get to your new friend so there's no feeling of instant messaging! I love that so much! 

Okay, my last shift of the night starts in half an hour, so I'll wrap this up. Soon, I'll have a little Witchy post! So watch for that!

Take care!
- Angie